Welcome! Thank you for your visit. As you can see, Bad Pollyanna are recording Album Number Two- The Broken Toys- and this is your chance to hear it before anyone else. We think of you all as family and feel it’s only fair to give you the chance to get some very special and exclusive Perks as well as being able to get the music weeks before the general public. As this is our most personal work to date- only here can you get the full story on how this album was conceived as well as an insight into our creative process.
So, what’s the concept?
We all have a voice in our head that terrorizes us. Self hatred, feelings of guilt, self doubt and unworthiness plague us all from time to time. Even depression, debilitating anxiety, self harm and thoughts of suicide are far more common than you might think. Despite this, these subjects are still taboo and we often feel like we are alone in our struggle. It’s so hard to ask for help for fear of being branded, rejected or dismissed.
This is why I have decided to be very open and honest about my experiences with these ‘voices’ despite knowing that it will change forever how some people see me. I recently recovered from a mental illness which featured depression, anxiety, intrusive suicidal thoughts and violent hallucinations. I know that if I’d have reached out when I was first slipping and been given the right help sooner it would never have gotten as bad as it did. Therefore I am hoping that through this album I can, at least in some way, reach out to anyone who is struggling to cope and say ‘Hey, it’s not just you; you aren’t a ‘freak;’ it’s brave to be vulnerable and you aren’t alone.’
If I had to sum up the album it would be this: You are not the voices in your head and you don’t have to believe what they say. You are a beautiful human being, full of emotion and love, perfect in your imperfection and, no matter what you’re going through right now you can, with a little help, find the strength to come out the other side stronger, braver and kinder than before.
Yours sincerely, Olivia Hyde x